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Interaction and Visual / UX Designer, Linguist, Photographer
Hi there! I'm Cindy.
Fascinated with human minds and with the passion to refine, I love to create better experience for users people!
View my resume / CV here
Cindy spent 75% of her academic years in computer engineering to only realize that she was more of a designer instead of developer. It's funny how sometimes life brings you back to your childhood passion. As pragmatic and analytical as she is, being a creative multilingual that have deep interest in various aspects of the world makes her exemplary at bringing in fresh looks in design.
Currently Cindy has a very healthy obsession with the Yakuza series game.
Let's chat!
for Graphics, Assets, Live2D and animation please use the form below with general description and type of commission. I'll reply back with form for you to fill detailed info, preferences, and materials based on the request. Please note that for any OMAKASE plan only theme and color will be taken into account.Payment can be made through booth.pm (preferred) paypal or etsy.
Currently booking: MAY - OCT
GENERAL FORM1. Your name: (for payment)2. or Your cosplay name: (for photo credits)3. Your preferred contact: (where you want me to send you the photos etc etc the default is through discord channel)4. Your phone number: (or other contact info to reach for the day of the shoot)5. What series is your cosplay from:6. Which character:7. How many people | solo or group?8. Session type: (group of more than two require full session)8A. Large group (4+) has personalized time slot and may get partial discount on case by case basis depending on # of people, do enquire.9. List up your preferred day and time of shoot(s): (slots are only confirmed after initial deposit is made)10. Anything you want to tell me about? ( references, story, poses, specific shots you want me to take)11. Link to references: (if any)12. (optional, for reference) Any style you like from my gallery? (HERE)
BASE RATES
LOCATION SHOOT
from 200NEW CLIENT: $200
$150/extra personRETURNING: $145/personCON SHOOTHOME CONS/EVENT:
$150/personOTHER CONS:
$220/personKANTO (only on travel dates)STUDIO: $500 per day (bring , multiple cosplays!)LOCATION SHOOT:
FROM 400 + transportation expenses + sfx cost (for example, bg explosion is usually 50+)CONS SHOOT:
from $100/personOTHER FEES TO NOTE
Base rate does not include the following:
transportation expenses
permit fee (if apply)
entrance fee
photographer entrance feeredeeming stamp
SF LOCATIONS ONLY
other location: + transportation expenses + extra personPrices are all subject to tax and processing fee
RATES INCREASE EVERY MAY. (DOES NOT APPLY TO FRIENDS OF ARATA PHOTOGRAPHY OR 2013-4 CLIENTS)
DAY+ SHOOT
not available for new clients
150/person, per set +
travel expenses + room/boardBODY EXTRA + SHOOT
for when you need someone (cylverxz) to fill the group
not available for new clients
150/set (rates goes down based on shin's personal interest LOL)
cosplay + travel expenses + room/boardLOCATION SHOOT ENTRY DISCOUNTS
MUSEUMS
GARDENS
ZOO
(SF ONLY, discount applied to max 3 people)OTHER SERVICES
SD RAWS: INCLUDED
MD RAWS (JPEG): $25
HD RAWS {JPEG): $35
PHOTOBOOK: $100, $10 for every extra copy (good for groups!)PRINTS
individual, private use only
(min order: $20 or pay for shipping)
from $2 / printDEFAULT is 4x6 Deep Matte on Fuji Crystal Archive Paper
Do ask for other sizing/materials!EXTRA EDITS
GRADING+RETOUCH: 20/photo
GRADING: 10/photo
DESIGN CONCEPT: 50COMMERCIAL USE
Do inquire.
Copyright is not transferred.
BASIC PLAN T1
¥22000
(後でのアップグレード可)
上半身のみ or チビ・デフォルメ
from $180個人・非営利目的のみでのご使用可
顔のZ
身体のZ
目の開閉
口の開閉 (ベーシック)
髪のゆれ (ベーシック)
呼吸
トグルセッチング(1)
STANDARD PLAN T2
上半身¥50000+ 全身¥70000
From $420営利目的のご使用可
顔のXYZ
身体の Z
目の開閉
口の開閉(母音)(シンプル)
髪のゆれ・物理演算(シンプル)
呼吸
シンプルアクセサリー1ヶ所
トグルセッチング(1)
リテイク(1)回まで+デザイン10%割引
KODAWARI PLAN T3
より自然
上半身¥88000+ 全身¥120000+
From $800営利目的のご使用可
顔のXYZ
身体の XYZ
目の開閉・変形
口の変形(母音)
髪のゆれ
髪や他パーツの物理演算(4)
呼吸
シンプルアクセサリー(2)
トグルセッチング(4)
リテイク(2)回まで+デザイン10%割引
ADD ONS
基本 ベース ¥10000+
BASE $100目パチ $20
白目黒目ハイライトの上下左右移動 $25
EYE SMILE $20
眉上下 $20
眉変形 $25
口パク $20
口変形(母音) (9) $50
口変形(母音) (25) $100
顔 Z $25
顔 Y $30
顔 X $50
身体 Z $45
身体 Y $30
身体 X $25
顔や頭に追加されるアイテムやアクセサリー (眼鏡、帽子、お面ETC) $50
呼吸 $25
差分(追加モデリング)
腕差分$50
衣装差分 $100
髪型差分 $50
獣耳・しっぽなど $35トグル設定(キーは8種類まで)
アクセサリー ON/OFF $15
髪型 ON/OFF $25
衣装 ON/OFF $25
表情 ON/OFF $25
T2のON/OFF設定 ¥1500
T3のON/OFF設定 ¥1000
物理演算
髪(3) $25
髪(6) $50
アクセサリー, 服 (リボン、スカート ETC.) $20
胸のゆれ$50
獣耳・しっぽ $50
髪(6)以上や滑らかなゆれ $50から
パーツ分け
上半身$80
全身 $150
お急ぎ $75~
リテイク $40
With the info gathered from my research, I have compiled my findings on potential users aspirations and pain points into two user personas, John and Susan.
A lot of participants in my study noted how they like how simple and concise the first aid guide is. However it must be noted that some instructions can be quite long and thus prone to be looking intimidating to some users, along with the avoidance of 'reading a block of text' given an emergency situation where timing is crucial. For this, I have separated the steps for different body parts so that a correct first aid steps can be reached without having to go through reading unneeded steps. Along with this change, I have also added speaker option to further aid users.
Based on the usability test results, I find that most of participant recognize how LEARN in main menu will take them to an introduction page while starting from EMERGENCY from the main menu will skip the introduction and take them straight to first aid steps. Most participant intuitively use the search function first given an emergency situation. However, it must be noted that some users would gravitate towards FIRST AID first instead of SEARCH.
To combat this, I have changed FIRST AID to LEARN and search to FIRST AID
"This is an app I would like on my phone! it's nice to learn and it would be very helpful to touch up on first aid or confirming steps that I might've forgotten. The least I want is to make the situation worse and with this guides I bet it would ease my panic in emergency [situations]"
This case study of a first aid mobile guide was very well received with the participants. People are very interested in knowing a lot of first aid techniques and are very willing to learn given an easy access to do so. This result shows the comraderie in humankind ; wanting to help one another, and it is such a shame that first aid lessons were not incorporated in a lot of curriculums.
As for the next steps, I would like to add a few initial ideas that did not make the cuts in this round. Setting aside from the obvious of expanding lessons, I would augment the quiz function as something users can do to quickly touch up on important basic skills. Furthermore I would also love to add a section where users can store their certificates, get reminded and provide an easier way to renew.
During this case study, I learnt just how much people want to help one another and how willing people are to learn, to do something good such as providing first aid assistance, given an easy way to do so. It further reminded me of the importance of not only making information as accessible as it possibly can and attention to details as the smallest thing can have a big impact.
A French Bakery: Rouleaux
Project overview
The product:
Mobile app and homepage for Rouleaux, a regional bakery generally located in the metropolitan areas.My role: ___ this is a solo project!Project duration: 4 weeks (about 14 hours over 4 weeks on production, not including research time)
TL;DR: Play around with the mobile app prototype here / or the homepage prototype here !
Do keep in mind that these are pre-filled and I only provide one screen of bread details so don’t be alarmed they all redirect to zunda anpan!
Problem and challenges
Busy individuals often lack the time to spend ordering or waiting when buying baked goods in store, or to even go to a bakery in the first place. Existing available bakery apps provide no function besides being a glorified point card substitute.
The goal
Design a mobile app for Rouleaux that allows users to easily order and pick up fresh baked goods, accompanied with a homepage for large scale ordering.
Market research
User research
I conducted interviews and created empathy maps to understand the users I’m designing for and their needs and use the finding to craft a few user personas. A primary user group identified through research were working adults who don’t have time to buy baked goods in stores.
This user group confirmed initial assumptions about Rouleaux customers, but research also revealed that time was not the only factor limiting users from baking at home. Other user problems included obligations, interests, or challenges that make it difficult to get ingredients and time to make baked goods at home, or go to a bakery in-person.With that, I gathered four main pain points.
On ability; as working adults are too busy to spend time making their own baked goods at home.
On time; as working adults are often too busy to even visit or order baked goods in store.
On functions; as existing mobile applications for bakeries offer minimal function and often do not have an option to order in advance.
Lastly, on contents; as existing apps for bakeries do not have exhaustive menu listings and other important information that might be useful for the customers.
Personas
Paper wireframes
Keeping user pain points in mind, I drafted a few paper wireframes.
For the menu I prioritized easy access of the exhaustive item listing and information to help users save time browsing, selecting, and ordering baked goods.
Sitemaps
For the app I prioritized personal orders while for the homepage, menu has been simplified and it's focused on handling large order such as catering.
Lo-fi wireframes
As the initial design phase continued, I made sure to base the screen designs on feedback and findings from the user research
Here is one screen as an example.
Flow
The primary user flow I connected was browsing and ordering baked goods, so the prototype could be used for the next step, usability studies.
Usability study
Before moving on to mockups, I drafted a style guide and here, I’d like to introduce two of my favourite assets from this project.For the logo, I made a rolling pin made from baguette. Very suitable for a French bakery called Rouleaux.
As for the buttons, I made a bread shaped button which rises to look “baked” when pressed!
And below is the rest of the style guide.
Mockups
Referencing the key findings from the first usability study, I started implementing that to the mockups.
And for the accompanying home page:
Flow
I also made sure to adhere to accessibility standard, paying more attention to the following accessibility considerations.
And with the finding from the second usability test, I further refined the mockups. Adding confirmation and categorized the macaron selection page.
By this point I concluded the project done and started one more quick usability study to make sure that everything ran smoothly.
view the interactive WEB prototype here
view the interactive APP prototype here
Takeaways
What I learnt:
While designing the Rouleaux app, I am reminded once more that the first ideas for the app are only the beginning of the process. I was also pleasantly surprised to find myself liking the study portion of this project. Hearing thoughts from potential customers was very eye opening and I look forward to hearing their feedbacks to learn what I, as the designer, might have missed. Usability studies heavily influence the design process and makes the product shine and usable upon every iteration.
Next steps
Provided the opportunity and means to do so, I would like to;
1. Conduct another round of usability study to confirm whether the pain points users experienced have been effectively addressed
And,
2. Conduct more user research to determine any new areas of need and further improve the overall design.
You’ve made it this far! Thank you for reading! Once again you could play around with the prototype here or hereAnd if you'd like to connect, be sure to check out my about page.
play around with the prototype here
For this project I have conducted interviews and surveys regarding flower purchases.
The following are some of the insights from my research combined.
About half of the respondents prefer to shop for flowers from independent florist, although only about 15% of them would actually shop there. The other half of the respondents prefer to shop from stores (gardening, wholesale and grocery combined) however in actuality purchases from such stores made up 85%, most of the flower purchases
In the ideal setting, I would've expected the result to match each other but in this case, it was the opposite. Why?
People are attracted to the convenience of being able to pick out flowers as they run errands or do grocery shopping. But if convenience is the key,
how come none of our respondents prefer to or purchase flowers online?
Paper wireframes; brainstorming notes
SITEMAP
userflow
Working on this project reminds me that convenience, while being the key is not more important than other elements. Attention to detail must also be practiced as the lack thereof have huge impact on user's experience.
勉強したことがない*polyglotのしん**が教える多語学を完全制覇にする方法
(日本語は↓↓にスクロールしてね)1. GRAMMARWhy?A lot of people start learning shiny new languages by learning ✨vocabulary✨and sure, while it’s nice to know how things are called in different languages, and I won’t discard it as a learning option if it’s just for fun BUT if you’re serious about wanting to be able to be decently fluent at another language this approach won’t get you anywhere because why? Because you’ll end up stuck with broken [insert whatever language here] for the longest time. So why grammar? With knowing the proper grammar and structure you will know how to properly construct a sentence! And now that you know the building blocks of that sentence, everytime you hear something new, you’ll know what part of speech that new word is, what kind of vocab that is etc etc in short things will naturally fill out for you!!! Knowing what type to look out for also makes it easier to 1)gather meanings from context and 2) remember new vocab.1. PRONUNCIATIONWhy?This one is simple; it doesn’t have to be perfect, some languages are just inherently complicated in that department! But if no one can understand what you’re saying then it’d be such a shame that all of your effort only shows on paper. Besides, pronunciation just seemed hard for most people because they’re not properly taught in school, even at all.1. ACTUALLY USE THE DAMN LANGUAGEWhy? If you don’t use it it doesn’t stick. I doesn’t get any simpler than thatHow? An easy (and a cheat, tbh) for this is to study abroad if you can. Be in survival mode, be in a situation where you would be exposed to that language so much that you have no other choice but to use it and get used to it! And the following applies whether or not you can study abroad, make friends to practice with! A lot of mistakes people make is just sticking on befriending people that speak the same language as them. You won’t improve like this. Don’t be afraid to branch out! Otherwise you’ll end up spending years in another country while still sounding like you’re fresh off the boat. I surely don’t want to live like that! Another mistakes people often make (although much MUCH better) is that they befriended other newcomers because they feel like they at least wouldn’t be embarrassed by their skill level. You won’t learn much more like this! Aim for more!! Again, don’t be afraid to branch out!!! Get yourself a friend who you can practice with AND who can help you learn!! This is especially easy to find if you’re still in school! In general people are nice and will be willing to help🥰 you might as well learn how to make errors like a native would do ww BRANCH OUT!!Getting a personal free tutor is the best and the easiest way to get started but if you’re like me when i was a wee baby then all you have to do is:Start thinking in your target language ASAPwatch or listen to more of target language. Immerse yourself in that and soon enough you’ll realize you don’t actually need that subtitle😉how is it for fun and learning at the same time?Take it from me i have never formally taken japanese for example and yet i managed to TA UD when i finally do LMAOand was also in ESL for like… a month bc i thought it was stupid LOLin short find a way that its easy and fun for you to incorporate new languages in your life 🥰- ただ勉強ができないだけ 多分E2なもんで天才ではないけど学習障害を持つ人ができればバカでなければ絶対できる!!
- *一応a linguist (UCSC Linguistics & Language studies degree (with extra serving of programming syntax LOL)1. 文法から学ぶべき飽きるほど単語から勉強はじめる人はよく目にする。それはそれで別にいいけど、真剣に話せるようになりたい人にはお勧めしません。なぜかというとその方はカタコトになりがちなのです。ではなぜ文法からなのでしょうか。正しい文法と構造を知ることで、正しく文章を組み立てることができるようになり、文の構成要素を知ることで新しい単語などを聞くたびに、そのワードはどんな品詞やタイプなのかを自然に分かりようになりますまた、どのようなタイプの単語があるのかを知ることで、1)文脈から意味を推測したり、2)新しい単語を覚えるのもより簡単になります1. 発音完璧である必要はありません。余計にややこしい言語もいるからね(とくに英語)。自分の言っていることを理解しずらかったらせっかくの動力がほぼ水の泡になるので発音もきちんと勉強するべきです。学校ではちゃんと教えられていないから難しそうなだけなのよ1. 実際にその言語を使うこれは当然なこと。使わなければ頭にのこらないのです。一番簡単な方法は(というかチート)は、できることなら留学することです。サバイバルモードで、その言語を使うしかならないような状況に身を置いて、慣れることです。留学でよくあることですが、自分と同じ言語を話す人だけに仲良くなりがち。こんなんじゃ上達しない、実際によく見かけます。10年いても移住したてのスキルのまま。もう一つは留学できるかどうかにかかわらず低級言語レベルの友達しか作らない、「自分と同じレベルぐらいなら恥ずかしくないだろう」という考え方。これもあんまり勉強にならいないのよ。上を目指せ!一緒に練習できて、教えてくれる友達を見つけよう!まだ学校にいる場合は簡単にできるので恐れずに声をかけよう、一般的に、人々は親切で、喜んで助けてくれるでしょう🥰どうせならネイティブっぽくミスも出来るようになれww自分用のチューターを無料で得られるなら最高なのでは?練習相手を見つかりにくい場合は早急にターゲット言語での思考をすること!また、その言語でのエンタメなどをもっと観たり聴いたりして、とにかく言語に囲まれているべき!楽しみながら学べるっていいじゃないつまり、○○言語を生活の中に取り入れることが簡単で楽しい方法を見つけることですちゃんと練習すれば2ヶ月あれば簡単にできるものなので
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GENERAL FORM1. Your name: (for payment)2. or Your cosplay name: (for photo credits)3. Your preferred contact: (where you want me to send you the photos etc etc [the default is by private discord channel])4. Your phone number: (or other contact info to reach for the day of the shoot)5. What series is your cosplay from:6. Which character:7. How many people | solo or group?8. Session type:9. List up your preferred day and time of shoot(s): (slot are only confirmed after initial deposit is made)10. Anything you want to tell me about? ( references, story, poses, specific shots you want me to take)11. Link to references: (if any)12. (optional, for reference) Any style you like from my gallery? (HERE)Fill out and send via the form below or join discord server HERE
Sample puzzle!
solving this puzzle will tell you which of the images below to click! bruteforcing is always a valid puzzle solving strategy but may make shin sad :(
shin's ultimate hobby is finding the optimal joy out of minimal suffering and have so much fun by herself minmaxing everything
yay! you got it! [STATUE] is the answer to the sample puzzle.
You are now ready to play!
currently working on some type of puzzle game combining 2 of her favourite activities she wishes exists for her to play. (oh the irony)
if you're interested in playtesting, drop an email from email boxes scattered around some pages in this site.
THE SHRINK(AFFECTIONATE, WITH PRIDE) YOU HAVE AT HOME IS THE ONE THAT WILL FIGHT FOR HERSELF, HER FAMILY, HER FUTURE, AND EVERYONE ELSE. DO NOT MAKE HER CRY AT HOME. SHE CHOSE HARD, NOT EASY AND SHE NEEDS TO MAKE HER CASE WITH THE RIGHT SUPPORT SYSTEM. (and she wants that to be her family bc cmon this IS the PAPER)
this is why she wanted to talk legal first but she got too excited she can finally help people okay, so of course she told her family first that MA IVE MADE IT, blame the tism, its hard here, this is why i do this, i need to be HEARD
KEY THEME AND GOAL: HEALING GENERATIONAL TRAUMA, SHORTCUT TO GENERATIONAL WEALTH, THE MIND, HELP THE SMARTPHONE KIDS ARE DOOMED, ACCESSIBILITY, FAITH, ETHICAL BUT RADICALHYPOTHESISwhen you get nature but dont get nurture you feel love
when you get the expectation you need you get drive
when you get nurture but dont get nature: you get
when you get nature but nto test:
i think the brain can remember a very specific memory and layer on a Filter of feelings. (like the dead wife memory--loving)I just need to say this in event that I was forcibly taken against my will, in before studying the more apparent presentation of sign of serious mental illnesses, I have found that the clear mind has the ability to view, or alter a specific feeling, in a sense that any traumatic event, serious or otherwise, presented to even a small children, will have a presentation of love if being seenprior to this my basic assumption is that my study no matter how traumatizing an event actually is, if the victim understood the intent of the perpetrator the lack of understanding will not alter the perception of the intent (so if the victim understood that the intent was not to inflict purposeful damage, there will not be harm done-- this has plenty of evidence throughout this paper)my 26 years worth of data should suggest correlation between intent and presentation, however in the terms of
a forced upon psych er visit which what was thought to be a regular er has given me feeling i have never ever think about before about all of the bad feelings probably existing and that i dont think i am capable to finish my study anymore as the presentation of the very stigmatized signs can be call, or forcefully called upon with major focus, with ease kill-off switch of blinks can study those presenting sign and i have never felt suicidal until this moment and i do not want this to undermine my 20 years long studyI have found that no matter how much care, worry or love is to be presented in meanings, a sudden, almost forced upon, and with an extra portion of misunderstanding, especially misunderstanding without the person who can resolve the misunderstanding, a mind altering damage might have happen, albeit temporarily. I am writing this specifically after realization that my study of trying to make sense how the brain ability to alter can be viewed with compassion and then would show compassion,being taken away to a psychiatric emergency room based solely on the study of managing the showings of the clear and focused mind, in a very healthy, using stress inducing flip switch for intended viewing of those very stigmatized sign is probably giving me enough damage to my brain itself that i cannot even study the connection between training managing stress to produce the result to even study anymore. the forced psychiatric evaluation, based on theprior to the forced visit to even conclude that intense stress can be good (which has been tested before)OK ABSTRACT IN CASE I GET ABDUCTED bc TLDR the most traumatizing thing I have experienced is, being taken against my will to be locked in with 2 really mean people that wanted AND HAVE THE POWER to take her from her family and she was REALLY SCARED that her mommy wasn't there and her mommy would be Stressed by what she had to endured in the same room from what help she could gotten from that room was the belief of Her Study, but help me god if these 2 bitches with a degree, should NOT test her, she's scared that her only Help in the room was belief of her mommy and help, the family interpreter cannot help her this time because he does not understand what her study entails and why shes scared when she's asked question she NEEDS her, Friend (her, "you have this very suekko (the baby, this is very important) energy that i cant help but see you like my lil brother--" "--lets play in florida sometime, we can just stay at my parents" "wait YOU were actually Floridaman this entire time" when your Older Friend-- something you've sacrificed To Prove Yourself, find a relationship in her of what could've been if she just want to take an easy path because shes always known blood is thicker and water but damn, she Has To Prove Herself and that the baby was really excited her big sister friend moves to San Mateo so she can play more dressup with her and hope, AND in times where covid19 did the most damage to You Especially, had to wonder why i cant get a job im so stacked to her given advice "ykno theres a design job open in govt if you wanna look into it" "yeah im Not That DESPERATE to lose access to drugs" "do designer have to go through drug test or--wait what is it that you do for the govt"
youve not only have found Friend, but a potential Partners In Crime, and now you have to be serious about your End Goal too and tread, carefully and you could potentially just gifted the best xmas present (xmas 2022 at chika's just the 2 of u) your entire life, and now you have to play your card very carefully, actually prepare to clear your trial (because you NEED to be the shrink to help your friend-sister, because tch an edible would fix her lol, because the -find-out-you-can-get-codeine-in-jp-easily-at-age-6 nature is calling you, because your Friend thinks you're a really Good Kid (oh sweet baby jesus dont let her know YET) and that you have to reveal everything to her once you know you can, have her on your legal team, WITH you or for you (in case i need to actually be lawyer-- but im more into the CUSTODY law, or idk DIVORCE, because you have to test your "big sister" if she had principle, enough to RAGE to try fixing the American dream. because you owe it to your 2 mothers, and yourself, to SUCCEED. because while in Tarcy you're not Like Chika's Phoenix, You're Edgeworth. and boy do you want THIS LEGAL ANGLE to help jab the medical field with SIAR and you need still to be the baby while you plan your plot. You're the Reverse Engineer, The Designer, The Fine Art--main-- Photographer, the Linguist, The working on something that only you can do
You needed to BE the shrink (affectionate)
i mean the American dream is your birthright given by your ai, dammit, not to be claimed and---get this---worked to death for government because she was a, Refugee with Money.
Delicious.
I want to Play this Game. And I want to Win. (or try come oooon please let me try i think i can do it)because she has class afterall, and know that SIAR, that she's the type to send a virtual gc for a, oh shoot ill be 15 min late, go get yourself something while The Transit Fails me (key point--another law she CARES, shes not HYPOCRITE AFTERALL, no uber anymore after prop 20 or whatever it was, MUNI IS MY BEST FRIEND NOW (and also fantastic logo design))
and now that your mommy isn't in the room, your cousin is useless (sorry), your legal counsel is OBVIOUSLY BUSY, I AM TOO I NEED TO ALSO LEARN THE GOVERNMENT BY WORKING FOR 17 HOURS DAY BECAUSE, THE ONLY WAY I COULD LEARN IS, TO DO, AND NOT READ BECAUSE. my study is HERETICAL in NATURE. and this is ACTUALLY VERY--- VERY DANGEROUS FOR ME, this is not the TRAUMA I AM TRAINED FOR...................(i panicked)the shrink at home is crazy so u need to protect her ok, and LISTEN to her,(this is draft for eventual debate presentation)I need it be understood that the point, and the finding of this journey is ultimately my testament, and my revenge, and my will to test the question of: Is there God, If there is God, God would not have inflict that much damage to my family, and that if God truly exist, what if God is (get this, very relevant and topical) Female?
I need my work and my personal sacrifices to be understood because well, I am here to Fight God, and to Challenge Him Every Time I have, only to be reminded that a Bigger Than Us --sort of things might be real, God can present in so many ways, there is multiple Gods, or just very, very insane unexplained things that when The Worst, Most Scientifically Ready-Minded's Will is to be Shaken, She might just be the most insane heretical pessimist in this very room right now and this is my findings:From what I learnt about my own experiences, I, a problem child, has a lot of question to answer. Who is God? Why do we pray everyday?
And boy was she, the one Ready to Find answers, for herself. This heresy is made for you by the hopefully, THE most pessimistic heretics in here to help you change your perception, or view, or what have may, you think or view, or feel about the concept that is God.God, from what I was taught is the perfect definition of a being no mortals like us can even be, this pessimist was raised Catholic Afterall. But this heretic also know for a FACT that she can recite, in her native tongue, with mastered fluency, and get this, with clear gender preference, despite of Language Erosion of this Linguist that Studied The Science of Language and Culture, That Was Originally Should Not Even be here because She is So Capable and so ahead of her peers and That Her Thoughts of How Technology Should Have Heard Her When She's Know Linguist Should be Imperative in the design of Artificial Intelligence.
She is by Natural Talent, so to say, A Good Designer and Would Rather Have Easy Than Hard, But she need her views known and understood, because lol im not figuring out this problem youve created from not letting me back then lololol suuuuuuck my (imaginary) dick [ok this need to be changed to Proper language later, but with the same Jab]This have always been a problem Child, who let her mother tongue erodes, who once felt, free from Catholic guilt (ref, Shin Lore), who in her development age, at age 13, threw a bible, whom her TWO basically mothers have her chose Religion to pick,
bc iffy on Bapa Kami but ___ with Salam Maria,
and it hurt that her Mother remembers one of her opportunistic best friend, Andrew (the doctor who ate 2 servings of ur food), but not The Friend She Dreamed of Designing better education with (Prasetyo, THE PASTOR IN TRAINING) pras would be proud of me
lol bc you were the cleanliness thingy tantou idk i fforgogrtthis has to be nothingburger for the reveal the study is HER and etcetc the final find is in the end just love ur kid and choose what she wants to do even though she cant be president back home, nor do she want at home, she just want to solve puzzles, because puzzles are best enjoyed with friends.