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Interaction and Visual / UX Designer, Linguist, Photographer

Hi there! I'm Cindy.
Fascinated with human minds and with the passion to refine, I love to create better experience for users people!

View my resume / CV here

Cindy spent 75% of her academic years in computer engineering to only realize that she was more of a designer instead of developer. It's funny how sometimes life brings you back to your childhood passion. As pragmatic and analytical as she is, being a creative multilingual that have deep interest in various aspects of the world makes her exemplary at bringing in fresh looks in design.
Currently Cindy has a very healthy obsession with the Yakuza series game.

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Stream Graphics

Cover Designs / Book Layout

All other stuff I did!

Animations

Promotional Graphics

Logo Designs



Natural Dividends site design

Case study: First Aid, Emergency Guide

Case study: Bakery App and Web design

Case study: Flower services web design

Case study: Bakery App and Web design

Case study: Flower services web design



for Graphics, Assets, Live2D and animation please use the form below with general description and type of commission. I'll reply back with form for you to fill detailed info, preferences, and materials based on the request. Please note that for any OMAKASE plan only theme and color will be taken into account.Payment can be made through booth.pm (preferred) paypal or etsy.


Currently booking: MAY - OCT

GENERAL FORM1. Your name: (for payment)2. or Your cosplay name: (for photo credits)3. Your preferred contact: (where you want me to send you the photos etc etc the default is through discord channel)4. Your phone number: (or other contact info to reach for the day of the shoot)5. What series is your cosplay from:6. Which character:7. How many people | solo or group?8. Session type: (group of more than two require full session)8A. Large group (4+) has personalized time slot and may get partial discount on case by case basis depending on # of people, do enquire.9. List up your preferred day and time of shoot(s): (slots are only confirmed after initial deposit is made)10. Anything you want to tell me about? ( references, story, poses, specific shots you want me to take)11. Link to references: (if any)12. (optional, for reference) Any style you like from my gallery? (HERE)

BASE RATES
LOCATION SHOOT
from 200
NEW CLIENT: $200
$150/extra person
RETURNING: $145/personCON SHOOTHOME CONS/EVENT:
$150/person
OTHER CONS:
$220/person
KANTO (only on travel dates)STUDIO: $500 per day (bring , multiple cosplays!)LOCATION SHOOT:
FROM 400 + transportation expenses + sfx cost (for example, bg explosion is usually 50+)
CONS SHOOT:
from $100/person
OTHER FEES TO NOTE
Base rate does not include the following:
transportation expenses
permit fee (if apply)
entrance fee
photographer entrance fee
redeeming stamp
SF LOCATIONS ONLY
other location: + transportation expenses + extra person
Prices are all subject to tax and processing fee

RATES INCREASE EVERY MAY. (DOES NOT APPLY TO FRIENDS OF ARATA PHOTOGRAPHY OR 2013-4 CLIENTS)

DAY+ SHOOT
not available for new clients
150/person, per set +
travel expenses + room/board
BODY EXTRA + SHOOT
for when you need someone (cylverxz) to fill the group
not available for new clients
150/set (rates goes down based on shin's personal interest LOL)
cosplay + travel expenses + room/board
LOCATION SHOOT ENTRY DISCOUNTS
MUSEUMS
GARDENS
ZOO
(SF ONLY, discount applied to max 3 people)
OTHER SERVICES
SD RAWS: INCLUDED
MD RAWS (JPEG): $25
HD RAWS {JPEG): $35
PHOTOBOOK: $100, $10 for every extra copy (good for groups!)
PRINTS
individual, private use only
(min order: $20 or pay for shipping)
from $2 / print
DEFAULT is 4x6 Deep Matte on Fuji Crystal Archive Paper
Do ask for other sizing/materials!
EXTRA EDITS
GRADING+RETOUCH: 20/photo
GRADING: 10/photo
DESIGN CONCEPT: 50
COMMERCIAL USE
Do inquire.
Copyright is not transferred.


BASIC PLAN T1
¥22000
(後でのアップグレード可)
上半身のみ  or チビ・デフォルメ
from $180
個人・非営利目的のみでのご使用可
顔のZ
身体のZ
目の開閉
口の開閉  (ベーシック)
髪のゆれ  (ベーシック)
呼吸
トグルセッチング(1)

STANDARD PLAN T2
上半身¥50000+ 全身¥70000
From $420
営利目的のご使用可
顔のXYZ
身体の Z
目の開閉
口の開閉(母音)(シンプル)
髪のゆれ・物理演算(シンプル)
呼吸
シンプルアクセサリー1ヶ所
トグルセッチング(1)
リテイク(1)回まで
+デザイン10%割引

KODAWARI PLAN T3
より自然
上半身¥88000+ 全身¥120000+
From $800
営利目的のご使用可
顔のXYZ
身体の XYZ
目の開閉・変形
口の変形(母音)
髪のゆれ
髪や他パーツの物理演算(4)
呼吸
シンプルアクセサリー(2)
トグルセッチング(4)
リテイク(2)回まで
+デザイン10%割引

ADD ONS

基本  ベース  ¥10000+
BASE $100
目パチ $20
白目黒目ハイライトの上下左右移動 $25
EYE SMILE $20
眉上下 $20
眉変形 $25
口パク $20
口変形(母音) (9) $50
口変形(母音) (25) $100
顔 Z $25
顔 Y $30
顔 X $50
身体 Z $45
身体 Y $30
身体 X $25
顔や頭に追加されるアイテムやアクセサリー (眼鏡、帽子、お面ETC) $50
呼吸 $25

差分(追加モデリング)
腕差分$50
衣装差分 $100
髪型差分 $50
獣耳・しっぽなど  $35
トグル設定(キーは8種類まで)
アクセサリー ON/OFF $15
髪型 ON/OFF $25
衣装 ON/OFF $25
表情 ON/OFF $25
T2のON/OFF設定  ¥1500
T3のON/OFF設定  ¥1000

物理演算
髪(3) $25
髪(6) $50
アクセサリー, 服 (リボン、スカート ETC.) $20
胸のゆれ$50
獣耳・しっぽ $50
髪(6)以上や滑らかなゆれ  $50から
パーツ分け
上半身$80
全身 $150
お急ぎ  $75~
リテイク  $40


With the info gathered from my research, I have compiled my findings on potential users aspirations and pain points into two user personas, John and Susan.

A lot of participants in my study noted how they like how simple and concise the first aid guide is. However it must be noted that some instructions can be quite long and thus prone to be looking intimidating to some users, along with the avoidance of 'reading a block of text' given an emergency situation where timing is crucial. For this, I have separated the steps for different body parts so that a correct first aid steps can be reached without having to go through reading unneeded steps. Along with this change, I have also added speaker option to further aid users.

Based on the usability test results, I find that most of participant recognize how LEARN in main menu will take them to an introduction page while starting from EMERGENCY from the main menu will skip the introduction and take them straight to first aid steps. Most participant intuitively use the search function first given an emergency situation. However, it must be noted that some users would gravitate towards FIRST AID first instead of SEARCH.
To combat this, I have changed FIRST AID to LEARN and search to FIRST AID

"This is an app I would like on my phone! it's nice to learn and it would be very helpful to touch up on first aid or confirming steps that I might've forgotten. The least I want is to make the situation worse and with this guides I bet it would ease my panic in emergency [situations]"

This case study of a first aid mobile guide was very well received with the participants. People are very interested in knowing a lot of first aid techniques and are very willing to learn given an easy access to do so. This result shows the comraderie in humankind ; wanting to help one another, and it is such a shame that first aid lessons were not incorporated in a lot of curriculums.

As for the next steps, I would like to add a few initial ideas that did not make the cuts in this round. Setting aside from the obvious of expanding lessons, I would augment the quiz function as something users can do to quickly touch up on important basic skills. Furthermore I would also love to add a section where users can store their certificates, get reminded and provide an easier way to renew.


During this case study, I learnt just how much people want to help one another and how willing people are to learn, to do something good such as providing first aid assistance, given an easy way to do so. It further reminded me of the importance of not only making information as accessible as it possibly can and attention to details as the smallest thing can have a big impact.

A French Bakery: Rouleaux

Project overview

The product:
Mobile app and homepage for Rouleaux, a regional bakery generally located in the metropolitan areas.
My role: ___ this is a solo project!Project duration: 4 weeks (about 14 hours over 4 weeks on production, not including research time)

TL;DR: Play around with the mobile app prototype here / or the homepage prototype here !
Do keep in mind that these are pre-filled and I only provide one screen of bread details so don’t be alarmed they all redirect to zunda anpan!


Problem and challenges

Busy individuals often lack the time to spend ordering or waiting when buying baked goods in store, or to even go to a bakery in the first place. Existing available bakery apps provide no function besides being a glorified point card substitute.

The goal

Design a mobile app for Rouleaux that allows users to easily order and pick up fresh baked goods, accompanied with a homepage for large scale ordering.


Market research

User research

I conducted interviews and created empathy maps to understand the users I’m designing for and their needs and use the finding to craft a few user personas. A primary user group identified through research were working adults who don’t have time to buy baked goods in stores.
This user group confirmed initial assumptions about Rouleaux customers, but research also revealed that time was not the only factor limiting users from baking at home. Other user problems included obligations, interests, or challenges that make it difficult to get ingredients and time to make baked goods at home, or go to a bakery in-person.
With that, I gathered four main pain points.
On ability; as working adults are too busy to spend time making their own baked goods at home.
On time; as working adults are often too busy to even visit or order baked goods in store.
On functions; as existing mobile applications for bakeries offer minimal function and often do not have an option to order in advance.
Lastly, on contents; as existing apps for bakeries do not have exhaustive menu listings and other important information that might be useful for the customers.


Personas

Paper wireframes

Keeping user pain points in mind, I drafted a few paper wireframes.
For the menu I prioritized easy access of the exhaustive item listing and information to help users save time browsing, selecting, and ordering baked goods.


Sitemaps

For the app I prioritized personal orders while for the homepage, menu has been simplified and it's focused on handling large order such as catering.

Lo-fi wireframes

As the initial design phase continued, I made sure to base the screen designs on feedback and findings from the user research
Here is one screen as an example.

Flow

The primary user flow I connected was browsing and ordering baked goods, so the prototype could be used for the next step, usability studies.

Usability study

Before moving on to mockups, I drafted a style guide and here, I’d like to introduce two of my favourite assets from this project.For the logo, I made a rolling pin made from baguette. Very suitable for a French bakery called Rouleaux.

As for the buttons, I made a bread shaped button which rises to look “baked” when pressed!

And below is the rest of the style guide.

Mockups

Referencing the key findings from the first usability study, I started implementing that to the mockups.

And for the accompanying home page:

Flow

I also made sure to adhere to accessibility standard, paying more attention to the following accessibility considerations.

And with the finding from the second usability test, I further refined the mockups. Adding confirmation and categorized the macaron selection page.

By this point I concluded the project done and started one more quick usability study to make sure that everything ran smoothly.
view the interactive WEB prototype here
view the interactive APP prototype here

Takeaways

What I learnt:
While designing the Rouleaux app, I am reminded once more that the first ideas for the app are only the beginning of the process. I was also pleasantly surprised to find myself liking the study portion of this project. Hearing thoughts from potential customers was very eye opening and I look forward to hearing their feedbacks to learn what I, as the designer, might have missed. Usability studies heavily influence the design process and makes the product shine and usable upon every iteration.

Next steps

Provided the opportunity and means to do so, I would like to;
1. Conduct another round of usability study to confirm whether the pain points users experienced have been effectively addressed
And,
2. Conduct more user research to determine any new areas of need and further improve the overall design.

You’ve made it this far! Thank you for reading! Once again you could play around with the prototype here or hereAnd if you'd like to connect, be sure to check out my about page.

play around with the prototype here

For this project I have conducted interviews and surveys regarding flower purchases.
The following are some of the insights from my research combined.

About half of the respondents prefer to shop for flowers from independent florist, although only about 15% of them would actually shop there. The other half of the respondents prefer to shop from stores (gardening, wholesale and grocery combined) however in actuality purchases from such stores made up 85%, most of the flower purchases

In the ideal setting, I would've expected the result to match each other but in this case, it was the opposite. Why?

People are attracted to the convenience of being able to pick out flowers as they run errands or do grocery shopping. But if convenience is the key,
how come none of our respondents prefer to or purchase flowers online?

Paper wireframes; brainstorming notes

SITEMAP

userflow

Working on this project reminds me that convenience, while being the key is not more important than other elements. Attention to detail must also be practiced as the lack thereof have huge impact on user's experience.

勉強したことがない*polyglotのしん**が教える多語学を完全制覇にする方法
(日本語は↓↓にスクロールしてね)
1. GRAMMARWhy?A lot of people start learning shiny new languages by learning ✨vocabulary✨and sure, while it’s nice to know how things are called in different languages, and I won’t discard it as a learning option if it’s just for fun BUT if you’re serious about wanting to be able to be decently fluent at another language this approach won’t get you anywhere because why? Because you’ll end up stuck with broken [insert whatever language here] for the longest time. So why grammar? With knowing the proper grammar and structure you will know how to properly construct a sentence! And now that you know the building blocks of that sentence, everytime you hear something new, you’ll know what part of speech that new word is, what kind of vocab that is etc etc in short things will naturally fill out for you!!! Knowing what type to look out for also makes it easier to 1)gather meanings from context and 2) remember new vocab.1. PRONUNCIATIONWhy?This one is simple; it doesn’t have to be perfect, some languages are just inherently complicated in that department! But if no one can understand what you’re saying then it’d be such a shame that all of your effort only shows on paper. Besides, pronunciation just seemed hard for most people because they’re not properly taught in school, even at all.1. ACTUALLY USE THE DAMN LANGUAGEWhy? If you don’t use it it doesn’t stick. I doesn’t get any simpler than thatHow? An easy (and a cheat, tbh) for this is to study abroad if you can. Be in survival mode, be in a situation where you would be exposed to that language so much that you have no other choice but to use it and get used to it! And the following applies whether or not you can study abroad, make friends to practice with! A lot of mistakes people make is just sticking on befriending people that speak the same language as them. You won’t improve like this. Don’t be afraid to branch out! Otherwise you’ll end up spending years in another country while still sounding like you’re fresh off the boat. I surely don’t want to live like that! Another mistakes people often make (although much MUCH better) is that they befriended other newcomers because they feel like they at least wouldn’t be embarrassed by their skill level. You won’t learn much more like this! Aim for more!! Again, don’t be afraid to branch out!!! Get yourself a friend who you can practice with AND who can help you learn!! This is especially easy to find if you’re still in school! In general people are nice and will be willing to help🥰 you might as well learn how to make errors like a native would do ww BRANCH OUT!!Getting a personal free tutor is the best and the easiest way to get started but if you’re like me when i was a wee baby then all you have to do is:Start thinking in your target language ASAPwatch or listen to more of target language. Immerse yourself in that and soon enough you’ll realize you don’t actually need that subtitle😉how is it for fun and learning at the same time?Take it from me i have never formally taken japanese for example and yet i managed to TA UD when i finally do LMAOand was also in ESL for like… a month bc i thought it was stupid LOLin short find a way that its easy and fun for you to incorporate new languages in your life 🥰- ただ勉強ができないだけ  多分E2なもんで天才ではないけど学習障害を持つ人ができればバカでなければ絶対できる!!
- *一応a linguist (UCSC Linguistics & Language studies degree (with extra serving of programming syntax LOL)
1. 文法から学ぶべき飽きるほど単語から勉強はじめる人はよく目にする。それはそれで別にいいけど、真剣に話せるようになりたい人にはお勧めしません。なぜかというとその方はカタコトになりがちなのです。ではなぜ文法からなのでしょうか。正しい文法と構造を知ることで、正しく文章を組み立てることができるようになり、文の構成要素を知ることで新しい単語などを聞くたびに、そのワードはどんな品詞やタイプなのかを自然に分かりようになりますまた、どのようなタイプの単語があるのかを知ることで、1)文脈から意味を推測したり、2)新しい単語を覚えるのもより簡単になります1. 発音完璧である必要はありません。余計にややこしい言語もいるからね(とくに英語)。自分の言っていることを理解しずらかったらせっかくの動力がほぼ水の泡になるので発音もきちんと勉強するべきです。学校ではちゃんと教えられていないから難しそうなだけなのよ1. 実際にその言語を使うこれは当然なこと。使わなければ頭にのこらないのです。一番簡単な方法は(というかチート)は、できることなら留学することです。サバイバルモードで、その言語を使うしかならないような状況に身を置いて、慣れることです。留学でよくあることですが、自分と同じ言語を話す人だけに仲良くなりがち。こんなんじゃ上達しない、実際によく見かけます。10年いても移住したてのスキルのまま。もう一つは留学できるかどうかにかかわらず低級言語レベルの友達しか作らない、「自分と同じレベルぐらいなら恥ずかしくないだろう」という考え方。これもあんまり勉強にならいないのよ。上を目指せ!一緒に練習できて、教えてくれる友達を見つけよう!まだ学校にいる場合は簡単にできるので恐れずに声をかけよう、一般的に、人々は親切で、喜んで助けてくれるでしょう🥰どうせならネイティブっぽくミスも出来るようになれww自分用のチューターを無料で得られるなら最高なのでは?練習相手を見つかりにくい場合は早急にターゲット言語での思考をすること!また、その言語でのエンタメなどをもっと観たり聴いたりして、とにかく言語に囲まれているべき!楽しみながら学べるっていいじゃないつまり、○○言語を生活の中に取り入れることが簡単で楽しい方法を見つけることですちゃんと練習すれば2ヶ月あれば簡単にできるものなので

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GENERAL FORM1. Your name: (for payment)2. or Your cosplay name: (for photo credits)3. Your preferred contact: (where you want me to send you the photos etc etc [the default is by private discord channel])4. Your phone number: (or other contact info to reach for the day of the shoot)5. What series is your cosplay from:6. Which character:7. How many people | solo or group?8. Session type:9. List up your preferred day and time of shoot(s): (slot are only confirmed after initial deposit is made)10. Anything you want to tell me about? ( references, story, poses, specific shots you want me to take)11. Link to references: (if any)12. (optional, for reference) Any style you like from my gallery? (HERE)Fill out and send via the form below or join discord server HERE

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Sample puzzle!

a puzzle consisting of squares in a 7(col) by 3(row) blocks. the first and last column are colored red and blue respectively akin to [REDACTED]. there is an arrowed line with points on (1,1), (3,1), (7,2), (7,3), (5,3), and ending at (4,2).

solving this puzzle will tell you which of the images below to click! bruteforcing is always a valid puzzle solving strategy but may make shin sad :(

image of a wreath
image of a statue
image of black trash bag

shin's ultimate hobby is finding the optimal joy out of minimal suffering and have so much fun by herself minmaxing everything

yay! you got it! [STATUE] is the answer to the sample puzzle.
You are now ready to play!

currently working on some type of puzzle game combining 2 of her favourite activities she wishes exists for her to play. (oh the irony)
if you're interested in playtesting, drop an email from email boxes scattered around some pages in this site.

THE SHRINK(AFFECTIONATE, WITH PRIDE) YOU HAVE AT HOME IS THE ONE THAT WILL FIGHT FOR HERSELF, HER FAMILY, HER FUTURE, AND EVERYONE ELSE. DO NOT MAKE HER CRY AT HOME. SHE CHOSE HARD, NOT EASY AND SHE NEEDS TO MAKE HER CASE WITH THE RIGHT SUPPORT SYSTEM. (and she wants that to be her family bc cmon this IS the PAPER)
this is why she wanted to talk legal first but she got too excited she can finally help people okay, so of course she told her family first that MA IVE MADE IT, blame the tism, its hard here, this is why i do this, i need to be HEARD


KEY THEME AND GOAL: HEALING GENERATIONAL TRAUMA, SHORTCUT TO GENERATIONAL WEALTH, THE MIND, HELP THE SMARTPHONE KIDS ARE DOOMED, ACCESSIBILITY, FAITH, ETHICAL BUT RADICALHYPOTHESISwhen you get nature but dont get nurture you feel love
when you get the expectation you need you get drive
when you get nurture but dont get nature: you get
when you get nature but n
to test:
i think the brain can remember a very specific memory and layer on a Filter of feelings. (like the dead wife memory--loving)
I just need to say this in event that I was forcibly taken against my will, in before studying the more apparent presentation of sign of serious mental illnesses, I have found that the clear mind has the ability to view, or alter a specific feeling, in a sense that any traumatic event, serious or otherwise, presented to even a small children, will have a presentation of love if being seenprior to this my basic assumption is that my study no matter how traumatizing an event actually is, if the victim understood the intent of the perpetrator the lack of understanding will not alter the perception of the intent (so if the victim understood that the intent was not to inflict purposeful damage, there will not be harm done-- this has plenty of evidence throughout this paper)my 26 years worth of data should suggest correlation between intent and presentation, however in the terms of
a forced upon psych er visit which what was thought to be a regular er has given me feeling i have never ever think about before about all of the bad feelings probably existing and that i dont think i am capable to finish my study anymore as the presentation of the very stigmatized signs can be call, or forcefully called upon with major focus, with ease kill-off switch of blinks can study those presenting sign and i have never felt suicidal until this moment and i do not want this to undermine my 20 years long study
I have found that no matter how much care, worry or love is to be presented in meanings, a sudden, almost forced upon, and with an extra portion of misunderstanding, especially misunderstanding without the person who can resolve the misunderstanding, a mind altering damage might have happen, albeit temporarily. I am writing this specifically after realization that my study of trying to make sense how the brain ability to alter can be viewed with compassion and then would show compassion,being taken away to a psychiatric emergency room based solely on the study of managing the showings of the clear and focused mind, in a very healthy, using stress inducing flip switch for intended viewing of those very stigmatized sign is probably giving me enough damage to my brain itself that i cannot even study the connection between training managing stress to produce the result to even study anymore. the forced psychiatric evaluation, based on theprior to the forced visit to even conclude that intense stress can be good (which has been tested before)OK ABSTRACT IN CASE I GET ABDUCTED bc TLDR the most traumatizing thing I have experienced is, being taken against my will to be locked in with 2 really mean people that wanted AND HAVE THE POWER to take her from her family and she was REALLY SCARED that her mommy wasn't there and her mommy would be Stressed by what she had to endured in the same room from what help she could gotten from that room was the belief of Her Study, but help me god if these 2 bitches with a degree, should NOT test her, she's scared that her only Help in the room was belief of her mommy and help, the family interpreter cannot help her this time because he does not understand what her study entails and why shes scared when she's asked question she NEEDS her, Friend (her, "you have this very suekko (the baby, this is very important) energy that i cant help but see you like my lil brother--" "--lets play in florida sometime, we can just stay at my parents" "wait YOU were actually Floridaman this entire time" when your Older Friend-- something you've sacrificed To Prove Yourself, find a relationship in her of what could've been if she just want to take an easy path because shes always known blood is thicker and water but damn, she Has To Prove Herself and that the baby was really excited her big sister friend moves to San Mateo so she can play more dressup with her and hope, AND in times where covid19 did the most damage to You Especially, had to wonder why i cant get a job im so stacked to her given advice "ykno theres a design job open in govt if you wanna look into it" "yeah im Not That DESPERATE to lose access to drugs" "do designer have to go through drug test or--wait what is it that you do for the govt"
youve not only have found Friend, but a potential Partners In Crime, and now you have to be serious about your End Goal too and tread, carefully and you could potentially just gifted the best xmas present (xmas 2022 at chika's just the 2 of u) your entire life, and now you have to play your card very carefully, actually prepare to clear your trial (because you NEED to be the shrink to help your friend-sister, because tch an edible would fix her lol, because the -find-out-you-can-get-codeine-in-jp-easily-at-age-6 nature is calling you, because your Friend thinks you're a really Good Kid (oh sweet baby jesus dont let her know YET) and that you have to reveal everything to her once you know you can, have her on your legal team, WITH you or for you (in case i need to actually be lawyer-- but im more into the CUSTODY law, or idk DIVORCE, because you have to test your "big sister" if she had principle, enough to RAGE to try fixing the American dream. because you owe it to your 2 mothers, and yourself, to SUCCEED. because while in Tarcy you're not Like Chika's Phoenix, You're Edgeworth. and boy do you want THIS LEGAL ANGLE to help jab the medical field with SIAR and you need still to be the baby while you plan your plot. You're the Reverse Engineer, The Designer, The Fine Art--main-- Photographer, the Linguist, The working on something that only you can do
You needed to BE the shrink (affectionate)
i mean the American dream is your birthright given by your ai, dammit, not to be claimed and---get this---worked to death for government because she was a, Refugee with Money.
Delicious.
I want to Play this Game. And I want to Win. (or try come oooon please let me try i think i can do it)
because she has class afterall, and know that SIAR, that she's the type to send a virtual gc for a, oh shoot ill be 15 min late, go get yourself something while The Transit Fails me (key point--another law she CARES, shes not HYPOCRITE AFTERALL, no uber anymore after prop 20 or whatever it was, MUNI IS MY BEST FRIEND NOW (and also fantastic logo design))
and now that your mommy isn't in the room, your cousin is useless (sorry), your legal counsel is OBVIOUSLY BUSY, I AM TOO I NEED TO ALSO LEARN THE GOVERNMENT BY WORKING FOR 17 HOURS DAY BECAUSE, THE ONLY WAY I COULD LEARN IS, TO DO, AND NOT READ BECAUSE. my study is HERETICAL in NATURE. and this is ACTUALLY VERY--- VERY DANGEROUS FOR ME, this is not the TRAUMA I AM TRAINED FOR...................(i panicked)
the shrink at home is crazy so u need to protect her ok, and LISTEN to her,(this is draft for eventual debate presentation)I need it be understood that the point, and the finding of this journey is ultimately my testament, and my revenge, and my will to test the question of: Is there God, If there is God, God would not have inflict that much damage to my family, and that if God truly exist, what if God is (get this, very relevant and topical) Female?
I need my work and my personal sacrifices to be understood because well, I am here to Fight God, and to Challenge Him Every Time I have, only to be reminded that a Bigger Than Us --sort of things might be real, God can present in so many ways, there is multiple Gods, or just very, very insane unexplained things that when The Worst, Most Scientifically Ready-Minded's Will is to be Shaken, She might just be the most insane heretical pessimist in this very room right now and this is my findings:
From what I learnt about my own experiences, I, a problem child, has a lot of question to answer. Who is God? Why do we pray everyday?
And boy was she, the one Ready to Find answers, for herself. This heresy is made for you by the hopefully, THE most pessimistic heretics in here to help you change your perception, or view, or what have may, you think or view, or feel about the concept that is God.
God, from what I was taught is the perfect definition of a being no mortals like us can even be, this pessimist was raised Catholic Afterall. But this heretic also know for a FACT that she can recite, in her native tongue, with mastered fluency, and get this, with clear gender preference, despite of Language Erosion of this Linguist that Studied The Science of Language and Culture, That Was Originally Should Not Even be here because She is So Capable and so ahead of her peers and That Her Thoughts of How Technology Should Have Heard Her When She's Know Linguist Should be Imperative in the design of Artificial Intelligence.
She is by Natural Talent, so to say, A Good Designer and Would Rather Have Easy Than Hard, But she need her views known and understood, because lol im not figuring out this problem youve created from not letting me back then lololol suuuuuuck my (imaginary) dick [ok this need to be changed to Proper language later, but with the same Jab]
This have always been a problem Child, who let her mother tongue erodes, who once felt, free from Catholic guilt (ref, Shin Lore), who in her development age, at age 13, threw a bible, whom her TWO basically mothers have her chose Religion to pick,
bc iffy on Bapa Kami but ___ with Salam Maria,
and it hurt that her Mother remembers one of her opportunistic best friend, Andrew (the doctor who ate 2 servings of ur food), but not The Friend She Dreamed of Designing better education with (Prasetyo, THE PASTOR IN TRAINING) pras would be proud of me
lol bc you were the cleanliness thingy tantou idk i fforgogrt
this has to be nothingburger for the reveal the study is HER and etcetc the final find is in the end just love ur kid and choose what she wants to do even though she cant be president back home, nor do she want at home, she just want to solve puzzles, because puzzles are best enjoyed with friends.

A VERY PERSONAL VIEW, REVIEW, EPISODES AND HIGHLIGHTS ON SHIN'S COMPLETE EDUCATION AND EMPLOYMENT HISTORY

whats not relevant to be put on CVOUI OUI MACARON (2013)
jack Dorsey (coworker pointed out because I am ignorant--often by choice) came in once just to point out that he made square and leave without buying a single macaron
imagine walking into a department store and walking into a macaron shop, looking at macarons and not buying anything and left after bragging. if it were me i'd buy a box of macarons, eat one and give the rest to the staff
this was my first job so i worked really hard and cried on the way home when i get laid off because the other two employees (college kids) needed it more (what the hell do you know Catherine???? do these two kids freeload and never have their own room their entire life?)PARIS BAGUETTE (BERKELEY AND SSF) SUMMER-EARLY COLLEGE FOR ABOUT 2 YRS
when i was working there there were times where the lines were long when i wasn't manning the cashier
i made it a game where i just give people waiting in line their order total before they even had the chance getting their breads and pastries rang up.
when i was at the cashier i thought it was absurd that people would just hand their credit card (to be fair the reader was by the POS) but in turn it was also a game for me to remember numbers and infos within the few seconds i had with them. (obviously im a Good Kid and I had never actually used somebody's info and meaningless string of numbers can easily be forgotten, but the point is when I was at my peak I could do flash memorization and calc haha) touch to pay only people!I could easily remember frequent customer drinks order. got a lot of bewildered looks for this one... like bro i am saving u time??I could bag breads at mach speed (ok i never actually count how much I could bag per minute but I was faster and more efficient than 3 people combined) (RELEVANT EPISODE ON WHAT WAS PROMISED TO BE "PAID" EXPERIENCE IN RECENT TIMES: SF MARATHON 2024 where I bagged 1400 the goodie bags by myself to the worst volunteering experience of my life only for sf marathon to NOT even give a lot of runners their bags. Very mismanaged.)Was begged to not leave when I quit, offered 2$ increase (lol) but ignored the fact that I had always commute 2+hours each day to location that i didn't even signed up forUNIQLO (2016-17)
Worked mostly graveyard shift to commute to school in the morning
Received care packages from coworkers for helping them do their job
realizing no matter how good I am at what I do i will never get the recognition/reward/promotion
MAMMARAZZI (2016)
Joined this doomed to fail startup bc clearly they know nothing about photo, influencer tactics and Value of good photo in the world of smartphone as field photographer (not to mention they dont have good site design either)
They still owe me two hours worth of photo rates
TEACHING ASSISTANT (2016-19)
Volunteered for multiple upper division Japanese courses at UCSC. I spent a lot of time helping out for free and don't regret a single bit of it. Unfortunate how academia paid positions are reserved for grad students.
AMAZON, PRIME NOW(2017-2020)
Joined for flexible working hours and thinking there would be a possibility for track to corporate to which there was none
Their promised education support thing was also Nonexistent
Feeling brain dead the entire time (especially since whole foods addition) since they dont allow multitasking
Realizing again that there is no path to actual career no matter how much better you are at the job compared to other coworkers. (upper management does not have access to corporate)

whats on CVUX DESIGNER:
NATURAL DIVIDENDS (2022)
- had an absolute blast learning about the company and its mission
- had full liberty and hand in the entire design process, working directly with Chris makes the entire project run very smoothly (no waste of time on either side) and it's quite apparent in the initial iteration.
- the entire project was volunteer run and they weren't able to secure any dev willing to work on it so my work never got shipped in the end which was a shame.
relevant but not on CVDEMOCRACYLAB (2022)
- was responsible for role page design
- thats it
- a bunch of meeting that doesn't have clear goals
GENERALIST DESIGNERTECH FOR CAMPAIGNS (2022)
- had a hand in refining a single graphic sets
- a bunch of meaningless meeting scheduled
- i had told them multiple times that I'm willing to design and draft up several designs if they would just tell me specifications
- terrible volunteering experience (im not sitting on a meeting to NOT even get to design anything, this is poor use of possibly A LOT of their volunteers' time)
- would still volunteer for them and their projects only if they appreciate my time and let me actually get some work done (seriously though, how is it in campaigning times that speed isn't a major factor to be considered???)
whats on CV (cont.)AMIMARU - EDITOR / QUALITY CHECKER (2023 - project drum)
- there is nothing good i can say about this company
- very poor handling on everything and very unprofessional
- they somehow got the linguist by chance (i was bored in hs/college and applied for translator to which they emailed my unemployed ass years later) and doesn't even make full use of her
- as a side thing, was a Huge waste of my time, at some point i Gave Up and let them make all their terrible choices
- runs on a tight deadline to which i have suggested several times that I can do the work of 5 people to speed up the process
- a major waste of my time in meaningless back and forth that I wasn't even getting paid for
- i had a blast shitting about most "localization companies" with linguistics professors
- i learnt about how badly managed a company can be lol
- in my defense i get paid peanuts (absolutely Nothing, i treat this as volunteering experience)
- very inefficient process, poor use of technologies (think having version control to just be Ignored)
- was Very, Very unprofessional, i hated how they use discord as main method of communication (not good for someone without notification turned on besides slack and main email) imagine lecturing stalkerchan69 on proper hyphenation for some words, i think i contemplated jumping off the bridge at some point on how pointless and stupid this whole "job" was
- 80% of the people working on this should be replaced with AI and it would make my work so much easier
Vtuber focused Designer / Modeler (peak pandemic era of 2020)
- did a lot of design projects for myself and made some "readymades" on lockdown
- i completely forgot about it and apparently ive gotten 100000 in earnings but its in yen so it meant nothing
- animated a few models, i think most of them retired now??? idk im really not into vtubing
- a fun hobby to do while focusing on UXD
Photographer (2013 - PRESENT)
- haven't updated portfolio in Years because im lazy and also because my work is done once i send clients their photos
- a bunch of never before seen commissioned photography works because apparently i attract like minded not on SNS people
- more never before seen photography because most of my personal projects are being made into photobooks (COMIC CITY, etc)
- made a photo travel guide (3 whole san Francisco travel guide books on mostly my favourite spots) sample available upon request
- currently trying to get some regular people models for WEDDING/ENGAGEMENT/FAMILY photography
- currently working on some baby photos
- currently working with film!!! tbd (to be developed) fun!!!!!!!
- considering holding exhibition in paris because SOMEHOW ITS CHEAPER TO DO IT THERE THAN BACK HOME
- won some meaningless awards for 2 photos but they slapped their ugly logo on it so it will forever be my dark history

PRE COLLEGEIn highschool, there was this site called Swagbucks where you can do stuff to earn points to redeem for gift cards.
I procure my first camera from all the money I've got collecting gift cards from various survey sites over a few years.
Swagbucks specifically is important because I wrote my first script to auto reload the page and just get me the points automatically without me watching ads or doing anything haha. Obviously I got found out. The weird thing is They personally contacted me and practically cease and desist me LOL. (A very childish movement on their part) Unfortunately, for the Good Kid that I am and the Not-Yet-Know-Anything-About-The-World I got scared because I thought I really did do something wrong or unlawful (I did not) so all I get beside eventually getting banned is bragging rights. You're welcome swagbucks, could've get me early to help but choose to bully a teenager instead.
I eventually bought my very own pro camera second year of college (that's after years of spending money renting good cameras and lens lol)I was head of Service Club, part of Interact Club and the only person in Robotics Club who wanted to learn and play with robotics and not to pad college apps.
I did over 1000 hours of community service during my time.
In high school also, because of a Problem Kid that I am, sitting in front row of the class, doing homework while the teacher is teaching (In my defense, it's not like i was playing, i was literally working on the materials being or yet to be taught--it's not like i ---*) Said teacher told me and the entire class that the genius type would often drop out of college. He was right. I often look back at that time and wonder why I never took the advice. He apologized to me when he wasn't able to get Computer Science class instated during my time. Not getting to try something I want is a common occurrence throughout my life.

in collegei didn't apply to many schools. i applied only to ones with quarter system because I thought i would definitely not survive and be bored on semester system (i was right)
i ended up going to ucsc because it was the closest one to home with public transit option because nobody drives in this household (i was massively Wrong and regret this a lot)
i worked multiple jobs back home the entire time i was in college (all weekends and no class days)
i spent a lot of time in the lab and sleeping at libraries because the dorm life was Not For Me
i got in school of engineering because i thought i could learn more about hardware but alas all the fun stuff and stuff that I was interested in was grad level courses and i absolutely have no money to actually go to grad school and by the third year all i learned in my time there was that i was only really good at and only enjoy logic parts and hated most of the others and decided that if I were to have to code (programming as a hobby is fun but) for a living i would be Miserable, and that i should choose something I enjoy, am naturally good at, invoke my curiosity and something that personally is low stress. I then take a few quarter breaks and made a full on switch to Linguistics.
eventually i figured that it is so much better for my wallet that I do not live in Santa Cruz and commute daily instead. The commute was 9 hours long every day costing a whopping $35 per day. I sprinkled quite a number of excuses to Not Go among the occasional Not-My-Fault late connections that renders the entire trip useless and one bus accident on Hwy 17. I wish COVID19 happen one year early.
I speed run the entire undergrad linguistics on my final year taking in 21 units quarter, with 9 hours transit and while maintaining a job.
I cleared my degree requirements in Linguistics/Language Studies in 2019 using mostly programming languages, and while i personally do not want to be a programmer anymore, if I ever have to learn a language in the future i'd learn COBOL.
I've always wanted to study abroad. Especially since being founding member of Sister City Youth Charter and hosting students, to not get picked despite all qualifications and effort. I wanted to get the college experience I never had and wanted to explore and learn other subjects. I got accepted to Hitotsubashi University in 2019, set to leave March 18 2020, 3 days after the lockdown was placed upon us. Canceled due to COVID19. The next year I got accepted to University of Tokyo. Unfortunately the pandemic lingers and with it another cancelation. I hit the maximum amount of LOA and was forced to graduate in 2022.

In October 2024 after completing initial testing of my puzzle game to a great success I attempted to solve a certain puzzle with no answer that required a lot of mental gymnastics. During the week long self experiment on eustress I have worried a lot of people (family) and it caused me to lose 2 of the 3 jobs (i had to miss a shoot and shoot planning because family) that I had lined up. (the min maxer* in me is still salty about it). The remaining work my unemployed ass have that month and the next was to serve as inspector for the 2024 election. Here are the collection tweet logs of the experience

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note: it ended up being the second busiest precinct

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note: the sheriff just stood for minutes because the gate is closed, not bothering trying to open gate himself OR call us OR get somebody to help open gate. Prior to this the sheriff just Waited like it isn't his job to take the ballots away (we had to add another 20 minutes+ of WAITING for the sheriff to be ready to come pick up because he did not alert or call us or even attempt to check in the site)

key takeaways:
vote by mail is privilege a lot of other states doesn't have but comes with a lot of issues, i would still get vbm ballot to prepare and vote in person if you care about timely count and what not
in the ideal world we would get election day as national holiday so people could go out and vote and use the ballot marking device. Not many people used it despite my push of what I thought was a great device. It helps mitigate err in marking (the ballot scanner really make sure you're voting for the one you intend to!! but this means redoing the entire page due to a single speck), saves paper and time as it outputs a single page and very accessible and easy to use.
I could definitely man a polling place by myself, I end up having to do and fix every single thing because everyone failed to do their job properly (and bc refusing to follow my direction) and they're the one who got a manual book on their hand for 2 weeks!!! I only have the time to scan through the book the night before 😭 I had to train them for hours until they can be left alone without bugging me on my breaks (of which i barely even get).
I learnt a lot of very interesting things during election day including analyzing the entirety of poll worker manual and especially the conversations with voters, nonpartisan groups.would love to take part in the making of the manuals one day.... also there's a lot of voter turnout and new/first time voter in the precinct I was assigned to. i personally think making collectable sticker could potentially boost voting rate for the youngins.

daily schedule of puzzle designeron site daysWEEKDAYS
11:00 - 14:00: WALK THROUGH, TAKE NOTES, SCOUT LOCATION
14:00 - 14:30: PICK UP LUNCH
14:30 - 17:00: RESUME ON SITE RESEARCH, NOTE PUZZLE IDEAS
17:00 - 17:30: TRANSIT
17:30 - 18:15: CONSOLIDATE/REFINE/EXPAND NOTES, MAKE PUZZLE SKELETON WHILE WATCHING PRESHOW
18:15 - 20:00: MOVIE TIME + DINNER ON REDEEM DAYS
20:00 - 20:30: TRANSIT HOME
21:00 - 23:00: ONLINE RESEARCH (CATALOG RESEARCH), TAKE POINT OF INTEREST DETAIL NOTES
23:00 - 02:00: PLAY MINDLESS PUZZLE GAMES WHILE THINKING ABOUT THE PUZZLES IM MAKING, TAKING/EXPANDING NOTES AT TIMES, PLAYING NYT GAMES, ESPECIALLY WORDLE JUST TO CONFIRM THAT I STILL BEAT THEIR AI EVERY.SINGLE.TIME
02:00 - 03:00: READ PUZZLE BOOKS/SOLVE PUZZLES, THIKING ABOUT APPLICABLE PUZZLES
03:00 - 04:00: GENERALLY CONFIRMING IDEAS (PUZZLE VALIDITY RESEARCH) TAKING NOTES OR JUST SIMPLY THINKING ABOUT PUZZLE CONNECTIONS, OR READ MANGAS UNTIL I PASS OUT lol most days I end the day after making viable puzzle idea.
then i wake up the next day SOMETIMES with expanded connections of puzzle ideas that i was working on right before falling asleep (lol)"I spent maybe 30 mins stressing on starting puzz and trying out diff design ytd to only wake up today and made the perf one in seconds
maybe the answer is to sleep afterall"
(no the answer is not to sleep, it is The amount of hours working on something in the bg every waking moment with proper rest)on off days
10:00 - 14:00: CATALOG RESEARCH, BACKGROUND RESEARCH
14:00 - 16:00: LUNCH + NAP
16:00 - 20:00: FLOW AND CONNECTIONS FRAMEWORK, SKETCHING
21:00 - 23:00: I GO WATCH SCARY AND WEIRD MOVIES ON TUE/WED :) DINNER ON REDEEM DAYS
23:00 - 02:00: I PLAY MINDLESS PUZZLE GAMES, THINK ABOUT PUZZLES IM MAKING, TESTING PUZZ VALIDITY
on design days
10:00 - 23:00: the usual schedule but replaced with design process lol compile data and make revisions, set up and update the hint bot
23:00 - sleep: the usual bedtime routine (puzzle games, solve other peoples puzzle etc etc)
on off off days
i sleep :)
i process photo backlog while playing Densha de GO! in between (one photo per station stop LOL)
i design or localize board games
i design for fun (design festa or comiket mats)
i play puzzle games for fun

In general 4x on site review, 7 days to make 1 month to production. getting playtester and following playtester (data collection) takes the longest...

General Travel Schedule

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re: daily schedule when developing puzzle game book #1
"how are you so productive"
me: "bro im unemployed"
re: explaining design choices process and thorough explanation of puzzle game (giving playtesters what gimmick or hidden hints they missed, interesting points of their performance etc)
"telling me about positions at FAAG (I have no friends working for Netflix lol)" "you should be working for a startup" "you really would be good in law with bigger problem solving"(x3) "
me: "yalls ATS scanner would dump me to the void" "what do you think ive been mostly applying to" "[REDACTED] im illiterate" (this one is a joke on how much i hate reading/writing)
Friends / people watching me work or seeing my works "Shin how are you good at everything you do" "Shin-san is really amazing at everything" 「しんちゃん頭いいからすぐできるし何でもできちゃうんで大丈夫だよ」
me: "and yet im the unemployed one!!!!!!!!!" (a running joke at this point)  「頭だけがよくて金と運がないんだよ」
re: photography on SNS, friends lecturing me on being more active online
"Yes we know you'd rather pay someone to take care of your socials but people need actual connections to book you like they literally need a special code to get in exclusivity"
me: thinking on how they're not wrong but in my defense I dont want to be a photographer and am not interested in chatting for free with no actual leads "but my website is literally Right There"

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Oct 17
when u can do everything AND MORE and yet you're the unemployed one!!!
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Oct 17
you can't expect ONE designer to do design systems, product design, ux research, graphic design, branding AND expect them to be good at ALL of it.
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Oct 17
im tired but i am also again, super salty that i didnt even get a glance through after writing out some killer strategy FOR FREE
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Oct 17
not to mention the designs i did FOR FREE to not even get a call bac-- (ok to be fair i only ever did it once lmfao never again)
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im at the low point that im thinking if paying for mensa will finally get me a job
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Oct 6
why the shit is it 100 a month LMFAOOO what does it even get u access to to make it worth
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Oct 6
like idk if it comes with complimentary airport lounge access ill pay the dues LMFAOOOO
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Oct 6
a lil puzzle solver card u can carry is p cute tho
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Oct 6
no bc the other day i saw ppl with 700 rooms “experience” 😭😭 like bro its kinda embarrassing if you cant finish a room by yourself at that point…
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Oct 6
im gonna make my own damn MBTI based on puzzle solving
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Oct 6
((this is a recruitment for puzzle team, pls take me to poland))